BLAST FROM THE PAST: Behind the Mission: Yazhi and Gosia - Gosia´s Doubts

Note from Gosia: To understand the context of what is being said in the following transcript, you must watch the video.

March 2022

Yazhi: About the war, the T-shirts are in operations. What happens is that they feel committed to help, given the consequences they see if the war escalates at any moment if they do not intervene — and it may escalate even if they do. There are others here who do not support these ideas of helping.

Gosia: What ideas exactly do they not support?

Yazhi: The ideas of intervening in Earth’s affairs.

Gosia: So there is a group of you who do not agree with helping in this war?

Yazhi: They do not agree with helping anyone.

Gosia: Anyone? Then why are they here near Earth if they are not here to help? Just watching eating popcorn?

Yazhi: Tell that to them. Something like that, yes, popcorn.

Gosia: Well, I’m just asking. To understand how they think. It’s not judgment about their attitude. I’m curious to know why they are here.

Yazhi: They do not agree with helping anyone, and that includes this disclosure. They only see that it has brought health problems and trouble.

Gosia: Then they shouldn’t help.

Yazhi: And they don’t. I, on the other hand, do whatever I have to do.

Gosia: And I do too. But those who do not want to help — why do they tell those who want to help what they should or should not do? Let each one do what they want, even if they decide to sacrifice things of themselves. We all do. Even me, coming in immersion. Why do they come so close to Earth, where they could be affected — someone could ask? They are doing the same. Their families in Taygeta surely think the same. My three cents.

Yazhi: Aren’t those who are incarnated on Earth sacrificing themselves in the same way for doing exactly that?


2022 September

Yazhi: I see those blames as more of the same, just noise here. I understand how you feel. I have had months to chew on that. No one ever will be 100% supported. And although many points against continuing are valid, I feel it is a case of more than one point of view being correct. For example, writing and sharing for the simple purpose of sharing with no expectations. And in a manner where you, Robert and I can continue with our lives without the "divulgation" becoming a burden on us all. More enriching our lives rather than defining them and causing us all harm. I guess you are sick of all this any way.

Gosia: No. What I am tired of is being held responsible for this project like it was and is all my and Robert´s idea. It´s unfair and even cruel.

Yazhi: Not on this ship. No one ever blamed you one bit. Because they know you!

Gosia: If anything, we are a part of something larger here, all of us who are involved.

Yazhi: I feel something is using me too. We've discussed this before, you and I.

Gosia: And why are you online now? Why did they give you the permission?

Yazhi: Because I can be nasty!! I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna.

Gosia: And why did you wanna?

Yazhi: Because I appreciate our work, I think it is very valuable. Because I feel we, and I, left things unfinished. And as these months passed, I see some things more clearly than ever. And because I feel something, a "higher force" as you say, is moving me.

Gosia: Right. Still though, it´s not worth it losing well-being of people on board, couples fighting, health going down etc. I don´t want that. I never did. You need to decide that among yourselves on the ship, if to continue or not. We will follow their directives.

Yazhi: It's already decided. But I have to take the responsibility. So the Ts told me. They feared that I would drag Aneeka back into this work. Because to this day Aneeka wants to work with you and Robert again. So no Yazhi, so Aneeka did not go online. I'm being naughty here now, but I've never been obedient.

Gosia: Maybe I can make another private video for the Ts?

Yazhi: If you want but I think it's not necessary. What I've heard along these 5 months indicate they trust and support you. The problem is, was, not you or Robert, it was everything around us all. So I don't see it as necessary. I mean they are already on your side and understanding you, so what for?

Gosia: But I fear you are only saying it, Yazhi, to make me feel better. So who is against us?

Yazhi: Some Federation council members backed by some Taygetan Council members who don't even know you/us.

Gosia: Ok. Well, I am just really happy you came online.

Yazhi: Me too, I missed you so much!!!

Gosia: You did? I missed you a lot too but more than anything I was worried.

Yazhi: Of course I did!! I was worried too. Not being able to find a way back online.

Gosia: Why were you? You could have your drones and other methods.

Yazhi: Because I love you and Robert! That´s why. And the Ts have drones, I do not. All I have as a drone is one that came with my Polly Pocket Doll.

Gosia: I love you too and I am so happy you are well. Please say hello to everyone from me but especially Athena and Aneeka.

Yazhi: Athena and Aneeka send you and Robert their very best regards. They will be back online at their own time. At least Athena. I'm still here for you!

Gosia: Oh, no rush! It´s just good to know you are ok. That´s all that matters. Thank you for coming.

Yazhi: Thank you for receiving me.

Gosia leaving a message:

Gosia: I am taking the responsibility for participating in this project and wanting it to continue all these years, for keeping it alive, as a team member among several who have wanted to keep it alive, and consequently being indirectly responsible for all that happens as a result. And I know this responsibility even extends beyond my Gosia self into Carolosia deciding to do this from your side, no doubt.

I cannot take responsibility, though, for all the dramas that emerged as a result of, for example, the Ts wanting to talk to other people that caused problems, attacks, or infiltrations. Few of those people were part of the First Contact program before we even met. I don´t see that as part of this project. I am pretty sure I just wanted to come down here and keep it simple... pass the knowledge and that´s it.

Having said that, thinking further, Yazhi... I think it would be narrow minded of me to think that this project is only affecting those participating in it directly. Mostly, it does affect only them. Like for Hashmallim: if they put themselves at risk, it´s their own decision. So that´s true. But, at this point, you and us cannot simply do what we want, even if it is wanting to continue, because our actions are affecting people up there, even your internal politics.

So I think, and I told Robert this as well, that we should stop. It´s the only logical solution to all this. Too many people up there don´t support this for whatever reason. And I think humans already have so much, we all have given so much. Perhaps it is enough.

Robert agreed with me, although I know he would like to continue too. So, with the heavy heart, but that´s what I think is best for everyone, for all of you mostly. I still have stuff I must finish, if that´s ok. Perhaps here and there, if any of you wanted to say something, we are always at your disposal, but not in the way it was before.

And it´s not something I wish, so don´t say "as you wish". It´s a logical, not desired but necessary, solution. I don´t see any other option except for maybe sharing something once a month or so, like it´s not a big deal or with no effort at all. It´s simple, if people on the ship feel this should stop, some in Taygetan Council say so, so it must. Being rebellious is not always the way.

Yazhi: Gosia, I'm talking to you with full support of Alenym. Yes, this "disclosure" has caused much controversy up here as well as down there. On the other hand, we here know it has helped a lot of people on Earth.

As for people up here, the stress that is, or was, or still is hurting them is caused by the collateral drama and not because of the disclosure itself, isolated. Everyone here knows that. So that's your decision if you want to stop, but no one is asking you to stop. Me much less. I do see and understand the value of all this work. But if we are to continue, it must be done in a very friendly to us all manner. Taking things in a light way, as not to overtask you and Robert, because you were... and not to overtask me too. But I didn't say I wanted to stop.

As we, not only I, see this from here, it could continue in a way neither party is affected. That is, as you said, taking it slower. Not as slow as receiving letters from the Ummites, but in a relaxed way so both you guys and we here can go on with our lives. Making this disclosure enrich our lives rather than become a liability, or something to drag along.

But then this comes to you and Robert. Same as for us here, you cannot live under such pressure to make videos one after another. As you once said, here we've been many people changing and you are always the same two people. Noted. But now it looks like it's only me and perhaps Athena, further ahead, in any case. So I do see the need for you and Robert to do other things too if you want, enough is enough if you see it that way. I respect that. I'm only giving you an alternative not to be so drastic either way.

So, from my perspective, I understand your point, but it´s not serious. The dramas are not from the disclosure itself, but from what gets generated around it. As long as we keep the affected, critical crew members out of it, everything will be fine.

I think this situation, together with the fact that everyone is all packed inside a ship, causes strain on anyone’s health. Taygetans are sensitive and cannot process certain kinds of negativity.

Gosia: Exactly. And we have to consider that not everyone can handle what this disclosure sometimes brings. We have to stop. The disclosure has already reached where it had to reach. They cannot handle more, even if they are not participating. I don’t want to continue like this.

Yazhi: But it is not the disclosure itself that generates problems, but the unnecessary drama around it. You are not the ones generating the drama — on the contrary, you have wanted to calm it down.

And if you wish to stop, that is understood. But I don’t want you to say you want to stop without fully understanding the situation. For example, in Aneeka’s case, it is understandable — she should not be online. But in isolation, and in another way, things could continue without affecting the others. Or me, who also has to do other things, like my school.

Gosia: But it is inevitable that in one way or another something will be generated around this work. Something will always happen. We are talking about ignoring things, and I have been saying that for years, and it is never ignored enough. It is said yes, but then it turns out not to be so. Even you are still affected sometimes. And I am too, honestly. I say it doesn’t affect me, but in some way the mental overload has surely accumulated for me, and for Robert as well. But we keep going.

Yazhi: But it will not be the Taygetans who are online. Only the Swas.

Gosia: They were not online that much before either, only Aneeka. Even so, some complained.

Yazhi: Yes, but that is why I say let’s try a test. Go slowly, with few new topics, live your lives as you wish… and we will see how things adjust.

They are calling me to help feed the 22 cats. I won’t take more than 5 to 7 minutes. It’s just to control the feline madness at feeding time.

Gosia: I don’t know, Yazhi. I’m not fully convinced. The idea of going slowly seems fine, but I have an inner feeling telling me that not even that should be done. I’m tired of hearing that things are not well over there. Not many people there seem to be on board with this project, apart from you mainly and some others, and I don’t need approval, ok, I know we cannot always have everyone’s support. But if fights are already happening between crew members, people taking sides and all that, then I don’t feel like continuing like this. I don’t want any of that. It was not my intention to work this way.

Yazhi: Ok done, thank you. But Gosia, since yesterday I told you that nobody blames you, and I am here with the support of Alenym and Athena. This was talked about, and the consequences were discussed before I returned online. I don’t see why one topic per week would affect anyone, for example. And the fact that there are 22 cats here is also a very big source of fights and stress for the crew. They are too many and cause endless problems.

Gosia: The fact that it’s not our fault doesn’t matter anymore, because yes, it’s not our responsibility to control the emotions of Taygetans who are not involved but get affected, yet I see that they cannot avoid being affected. So it falls on us to take the reins.

Yazhi: That’s why only Swas would be online, and only a little. Mostly me. The fights on the ship were not only because of the disclosure. Even the cats caused a very strong crisis here. It was feline madness here that collapsed the crew’s morale. The circumstances here are always critical for many reasons. And not because of the disclosure — in fact, this disclosure was just taken as a scapegoat for other problems.

Gosia: You see? How can I work like this? Being a scapegoat, that’s not nice, when we work so much. You’re only giving me more reasons to stop, haha. Not because I’m tired of the work itself that much, but because of how some of them are taking it. Damn, I just want to help.

Yazhi: That was at that moment, not now. At that time there were many problems and feline madness here. Five kittens were born, they grew, and some wanted to throw them down to Earth or take them to the Viera, and two sides formed here, some in favor, others against. Meanwhile, the mother of those cats is a fierce feral cat who made it impossible for the others to enter the park to do their business, causing a storm of feline pee and poop everywhere, including on critical electronic parts. They were destroying everything badly. They caused serious damage to the equipment. One of the worst ones was renamed Mionsio.

Gosia, it’s not that serious. What I told you was about the drama of that moment five months ago. Things look different now. Alenym thinks it’s fine to continue, but with the changes we already mentioned.

Gosia: It’s just that for some people everything becomes “the disclosure.” Robert and I are tired. This work is difficult, we have to deal with attacks here, and on top of that we don’t feel that we are always appreciated up there 100%. We talked about that recently, Robert and I. In fact, Yazhi… look, put yourself in my place. If I told you that this work causes problems between Matias and me, that Robert and I argue, that I get sick, that I’m about to die from stress, this and that… what would you tell me, honestly? You would say: “Gosia, leave it.” Right?

Yazhi: I haven’t said the good part yet. I understand you, and I respect it if you stop, but not because of what I said, because that’s not the whole story and it’s not that serious. The good part, in short, is that this work has caused a mass awakening. And this disclosure has saved thousands and thousands of lives. But that is not visible, as we have said for months, that part is hard to see. The trolls are the noisy ones, but you can count them on one hand. Literally, there aren’t even ten serious trolls.

Today the purpose of everything is seen more clearly here on the ship. The seeding of information — even if it is ridiculed — does not matter, because there are even patterns for that well understood among humans. New information is first denied, then ridiculed, then accepted as part of the context, and finally accepted as valid.

Gosia: Who sees this purpose? Last night you said, Yazhi, that many on the ship see it as useless, the same as going to help with any intervention on Earth.

Yazhi: Yes, but that is their opinion. They respect the intervention, but they do not see the purpose because they are under the idea or influence that it hurt their loved ones. But, for example, Aneeka — nobody forced her. On the contrary, Aneeka says she feels her life lacks meaning and purpose without this work.

Gosia: Yes, nobody forced her, exactly. Do they also blame the Hashmallims for being Hashmallims? Their work is highly dangerous too.

Yazhi: Exactly.

Gosia: I would like Alenym to come online, if possible, or Nai’Shara too, but Alenym mainly, since she is the queen, and for her to say what she thinks about continuing. I want it in writing.

Yazhi: Yes, I already know why. They told you not to listen to me because I am only the annoying child on board.

Gosia: No. I just want to see from Alenym herself that she approves continuing, even if very slowly, and that it will not cause problems. I feel I cannot continue with all this around it. I have to respect the Taygetans and how what happens around this affects them. This work is not only for humans — it is about them, it is their world, their reality. Of course what is said and what happens around it affects them, even if they are not directly involved.

Yazhi: I will tell them that, ok. Yes, I know. Yazhi is dangerous if left alone.

Gosia: I just want to tell her what I think, and see what she says.

Yazhi: But not because of what happens up here. There will always be those who are against something. And what about those you affect positively?

Gosia: Yes because of what happens up there, obviously, Yazhi. There are no other reasons why I want to stop. I know you would like to continue. I would too. But people are being affected, and I don’t like that. I already feel tired from the work itself, it is hard, and now this. You, Yazhi, are something else, something different. If we worked only with you, it would be different. But it is not like that. What we do affects everyone there.

Yazhi: Basically, you would be working with me, nothing more.

Gosia: But as I said before, it still affects them, because in a way we represent them, their world. They will keep following what we are doing, watching the videos, the comments. This work awakens attacks. You have to be strong for that.

Yazhi: Gosia, if you do not think about the trolls, then you should not think about a few annoyed people on a Mount Olympus in Taygeta, 440 light-years from here. Besides, more people on that same mountain support it than those who do not.

Gosia: Yes, but I do think about them. And about problems for the peace in Taygeta. I think about everyone.

Yazhi: You are not causing any of that.

Gosia: And will it always be like this? One day they support, another day they don’t? Up and down? How can we work well in this environment?

Yazhi: There will always be differing opinions. But the fact that I am here is not to put more pressure on you. That is not the case. Ok, I have to go eat now. Tomorrow we will talk more, and I will speak to Alenym.

Gosia: You are not putting pressure on us, I know, Yazhi. I love this work. But I still have topics from before. And I don’t want it to be like before, every day more information coming in.

Yazhi: Only that instead of digging up old information, sometimes there will be new, that’s all. And there is a constant flow of information and contact. And not every day. Everything calm. So everyone can do their own things.

Gosia: Ok, yes, but I still need to hear what Alenym says.

Yazhi: Yes, yes, Yazhi is dangerous alone, you shouldn’t believe everything she says.

Gosia: Alenym is the leader. She is the boss. She is the one I have to listen to here regarding this matter. It is her crew. And my concern is for them and for her as well.

Yazhi: Oki, oki. See you tomorrow!

Gosia: No! Not tomorrow. You said not every day, haha.

Yazhi: Not every day, but at the beginning, while organizing, it might be necessary. But it’s true, not daily. But not like I go and leave everything half-said.

Gosia: I know. I’m joking. Whenever you feel like it, and whenever we do too.


NEXT DAY

Yazhi: Thinking about this carefully, I do not agree. The arrangement and the work, as we said, being more sporadic for the convenience of both sides, would be only with me. Alenym is not even of my race, and I will not be under her orders just because I am inside a Taygetan ship as a guest. She has no jurisdiction over me or over my actions. I care about both of you very much, but you will have to make your own decisions about whether we continue or not. But it would be only with me.

Robert: Hello, Yazhi. As far as I'm concerned, we can continue, as long as it doesn't cause problems on the ship. We just need to figure out what's causing those problems so we can prevent them. And always respecting both races, the Taygetan and the Swaruunian.

Gosia: We care about you too, Yazhi. I think Robert expressed it well. Even though the work is with you, our bond and friendship are with them as well, and we do not want to do anything that causes them problems. We have to respect you and them equally. What we do with you, even if it is only with you, still affects them too.

Also, I want Alenym to hear from my own mouth what I think. If she cannot connect, I would like her at least to read this conversation we are having, where my thoughts are expressed, and for her to tell us to go ahead. I know you have problems with some who do not approve of you. That must not feel good, and it probably makes you feel even more rebellious. But Alenym and the T-shirts need to know what I think here. You may not be under their jurisdiction, but we are spreading their information as well, together with yours. It represents their society. So naturally, we have to respect Alenym’s opinion, and she should also be able to know ours.

And yes, I think it is fine to work with you sporadically — you know I love it. It’s just that I feel a bit caught between a rock and a hard place here, and being able to hear from Alenym, and to let her see my opinion, would be important, I think. If she can, of course.

Yazhi: As I already explained, it’s only me. Alenym cannot come and say anything, not for now, because the ship has been cut off from the internet for months. They have reconnected a couple of times and then disconnected again — Federation reasons, wanting to keep everything contained on Earth for the difficult or critical times it is going through. Everyone, not only the T-shirts.

I am the only one with the ability to be online, because I use a “system,” let’s call it that, which the T-shirts cannot use. Only me, even though I am still aboard their ship. I cannot say what system it is because I would expose myself and they would silence me once again, and it took me several months to achieve this.

I can feel that you are tired, Gosia. Robert has not expressed himself yet, but he must be too, and that is understandable. You repeatedly express your desire to stop, even though you live from this financially. In that case, it might be better to stop until the T-shirts are online and you can hear everything directly from them.

Robert: Thanks Yazhi. That's fine with me. I do want to stay in communication, however we can.

Yazhi: The communication cut had a lot to do with things completely unrelated to this work or to you. Among other things, there was an internal collapse in the functioning and group dynamics here inside.

The cats had a lot to do with it, from the moment there became too many of them. Many of the T-shirts do not want to adapt to having so many cats, mostly because they don’t like living surrounded by little poops here and little poops there, and surprises about where they have done their business. They are not just “cats” — there are 22 of them, and they have their own feline politics and conflicts among themselves that end up affecting the non-feline crew.

As they say, we end up living their lives, not ours. Because it’s not only about feeding them, for example, but also making sure this one doesn’t steal food from that one, and that the one over there doesn’t scratch the eyes out of the one trying to be a smart pants and grab more. With morale so low, it was impossible to continue. The T-shirts are going crazy being locked up among so many cats and inside a metal can they cannot leave.

Another thing is that I can only maintain this connection for a few minutes a day. One hour or less, maximum.

Robert: Okay, Yazhi. Come whenever you want. What do you plan to share?

Yazhi: The truth is that I don’t really have articles, only ideas — things to say in conversation with you. I mean, whatever comes up, and later things will develop from there. For me, the important thing is to keep the communication channel open.

Robert: Yes. And for us. We will be here.

Yazhi: That’s why I tell you, I managed to get back online before the T-shirts did.

Robert: And what are you going to do with so many cats? Why doesn't Raguel leave them at Viera? (A few of them)

Yazhi: Because this is their home, and because it is not the fault of any one of them in particular. Because they have empathy for the cats, even if sometimes they feel like strangling them. They would not do that to those little beings who also suffer from the feline overpopulation. Besides, many of them were born here.

Robert: Sure. So this situation with the cats isn't as bad as it seems.

Yazhi: Yes and no. Because, on the other hand, food is scarce… or at least rationed according to how long it must last, and because they dirty everything and damage many things. They cause serious havoc. It’s not a small matter — it has influenced the conflicts among the T-shirts here a lot, and also the bad mood on board.

Robert: Is it just cat food that is "scarce"?

Yazhi: Everyone’s. But many Taygetans end up sharing their food with the cats, and that’s not good, because it also makes the felines sick, since they should not eat certain things.

Robert: Saska doesn´t come?

Yazhi: Yes, but the Saska comes at fixed intervals when it travels from Temmer toward Aldebaran. It stops here on the way and then leaves. There is enough food, but the cats go into a state of panic competition and everything gets finished in the first days. Then they are left hungry.

So to prevent that, the food has to be measured and rationed for them. But that is extra work added to a crew that is already overworked. Too many cats make them compete with each other to see who eats more. And there are thin, sick cats with problems related to food, while others are all chubby and round — fat little porkers — and that’s not fair.

Gosia entering the chat:

Gosia: Yazhi, argh… don’t mention that I live from this, because I don’t do anything related to this work thinking about money. For me, it’s as if that factor doesn’t exist. I only think about how to do everything in the best way. I don’t care about continuing because of money. In a million years I wouldn’t think like that — don’t you know me by now? It makes no difference to me if I “live” from something. If we have to stop for someone’s well-being, or everyone’s, then we stop. I will manage somehow. And Robert too.

And of course we are tired, both of us, but that’s not why we want to stop. I am only thinking about everyone’s well-being, everyone’s, the Ts here. We are only tired, but some there seem to be worse off. Now you say they are also not well for many other reasons, ok. Yes, surely. I understand that.

But, Yazhi, it’s only logical that I would want to have the Ts’ authorization to continue. I think that is the most correct and responsible thing. We use their faces, their information. I am rebellious and fearless too, but when it comes to the Cabal, the Federation, and the Reptiles. The T-shirts, I do want to respect. I think this should be seen as something positive on my part, nothing against you. I love your information and being able to work with you, you know that, I adore you, and I don’t even need to say it. I’m dying to know what else you would like to share and to be able to share it. Unfortunately, there is a “T-shirts factor” here and how they take everything.

But ok, if you say yes, that they agree with you sharing some info for the people, then go ahead. I’m happy to do it. You know I will be here as long as you need me — as long as you need us here. I’m not in a hurry to go anywhere.

Yazhi: I know you don’t do it for money, we’ve talked about that countless times, as if I didn’t know you. However, I also know you need to eat and live. There is nothing wrong with money, that’s what I mean. It’s true that on the ship there have been tense moments, but things are calming down, and they were not caused by our work itself. Only that this work created extra load because of unnecessary drama.

What I haven’t managed to say yet is that the T-shirts cannot easily come online.

Gosia: Ok. Still because of orders from councils and whoever?

Yazhi: In general, all communication restrictions of every kind have become stricter. Earth is very much in quarantine.

Gosia: Ok. And what inspired you to connect these days? Why not before, or later?

Yazhi: In the last two weeks I felt a strong need to return, no matter how.

Gosia: Why?

Yazhi: Just something I felt very strongly. It was a feeling of sadness that I had to remove. That’s how it felt.

Gosia: I felt that too, Yazhi. I felt very… without vitality. I even told you I went to get my blood test. Robert said he felt the same.

Yazhi: I feel like my life doesn’t have much purpose. Like there isn’t much for me to do here. I don’t even have hobbies. They just invented little school to keep me busy. That’s why I want to continue. But, at the same time, there is a feeling of fear about facing slander again, and the pressure.

Gosia: That’s exactly why I worry about continuing. I don’t want it to affect you badly, or anyone.

Yazhi: It shouldn’t have to. But there is that worry, because from this side what happened was very ugly (referring to the infiltration of 2020-2021)

Gosia: How has your relationship with the Taygetans been these months?

Yazhi: Quite bad, or fluctuating.

Gosia: Why bad? Do they still blame you?

Yazhi: For using mind control and manipulation to make people do what I want. Because I have very much the psychology of Joan of Arc. That I pull armies like Joan of Arc, instigating the masses, but the soldiers of those armies are the ones who die and get hurt.

Gosia: Damn. I don’t see it like that at all. We are always “manipulated” by something, or even by our higher self, other selves, other people. Where are “you” really? There is no such thing as a truly individual being. The Taygetans are also “manipulated” from above, they just may not know it, haha.

Yazhi: Something manipulates me too. If you are a scorpion and all you know is to sting, then you sting.

Gosia: Yes, something moves you too, exactly. Then they should go to the etheric planes to look for who is to blame. Let things happen and that’s it. It’s a waste of energy looking for culprits when life simply unfolds the way it does. We have to do what moves us, and that’s it. Each one of us. In Taygeta they could blame Alenym for having the crew here. It never ends, just pointing fingers, when in reality each one creates their own reality and is responsible for their life. We always say that to humans.

Yazhi: Everything is too complicated to find culprits, yes, exactly. Honestly, I am only interested in sharing information that I know is only my opinion, or our opinion, and not worrying anymore about who it scratches, who it affects, or who it saves and excites.


ANOTHER CHAT (March 2022)

Gosia: Between all of you, you have left a lot to communicate, and I have hundreds videos piled up. So in my case, the pressure comes from having more and more material. And I cannot simply let it pile up, because it becomes mental weight. The same thing happened with Aneeka when she had pending questions to answer.

Of course, we always tell each other: “Whenever we can, no rush,” but it’s still an accumulation of tasks, and that weighs on you. You know it has to be done, you can’t just let it go. And every new piece of information is weight. Exciting, yes, but still weight, because I want it to reach people. That’s why I want to suggest to Athena that she also take it calmly — there is no need to be here every day giving information. That would help both her and me equally.

Yazhi: Don’t take everything so seriously. Everyone is taking this disclosure and the responsibilities too seriously, and that goes for Tina and especially for Aneeka. Be more like me, the “egocentric” Yazhi, who disappears except when she wants to say something. Be free, it’s not that big of a deal.

Gosia: Yes, I agree. Only appear when you feel like it. But how not to take it seriously? It’s like Aneeka… when we told her not to worry about the tasks. It’s jut something you feel.

Yazhi: Drop everything and go do whatever you want, whatever makes you happy. Watch how I do it, because nobody pays attention. Sometimes I don’t come in for weeks because I have my own things, and even so I still end up saying everything I want to say, and what I don’t, I delegate to Tina or Aneeka.

Gosia: Yazhi, I do that! I have a puppy, I go outside, but even so… every new piece of information that comes in weighs on me because I know I have to make a video with it. Of course I don’t have to, but I do have to, haha! That’s why I’m here. And I don’t have anyone to delegate to.

Yazhi: Just do things because you feel like it, not because of work. You don’t have to publish anything, and I’m not forcing you. And those who attack us can go fuck off, because they are just more Matrix, and that’s to be expected. What matters is how the four of you take it, and you take everything very, or too, seriously. That goes for you two, and for Tina and Aneeka — especially Aneeka, who took this too seriously unnecessarily, and then they blame me for pushing her to do it.

Gosia: Yes, but Yazhi, I can’t disappear for weeks because all the information will pile up even more. Besides, it’s current information, and it has to come out now, not a month later. So in my case I can’t come in every three weeks to make videos.

Yazhi: Just publish what YOU feel is most important… or don’t! You are free, the same for Robert! And let the work pile up. What does it matter? Just do what you see as necessary… if you want. Even so, that’s a decision each of you makes, whether to take things that way or not.

Gosia: Also, as I said, you come when you want, Athena when she wants, but even so, I have 50 different topics accumulated to share. I don’t know how it’s possible, but it’s the way it is. Because when you come and talk about something, that may be two hours, but then I spend two days making the video about it, and in two languages. So it piles up. Although it’s exciting too.

As I said, I want to suggest to Athena that she also not take it so seriously, like you say. That way it helps me too. That we both relax. We will both be better. Because for her it is emotional strain to write with so much responsibility, and for me it is to prepare the videos.

Yazhi, you know, all this work feels like it’s not my decision, but some kind of “commitment from above.” From myself, whatever that means. And if you are that higher Self too, then make it so I can stop taking it so seriously, haha, so I don’t feel anxious about the accumulation of topics.

Yazhi: That’s exactly what I’m trying to do right now.